Quarter-life Crisis
Got another nice email from my Mareng Nicole. It says a lot about what most people my age are going through right now though I’m happy to say that I am yet to experience all of the things mentioned here. Probably I’m not yet suffering from the crisis.
They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you
stop going along with the crowd and start realizing
that there are many things about yourself that you
didn’t know and may not like.You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will
be in a year or two, but then get scared because you
barely know where you are now.You start realizing that people are selfish and that,
maybe, those friends that you thought you were so
close to aren’t exactly the greatest people you have
ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are
some of the most important ones. What you don’t
recognize is that they are realizing that too, and
aren’t really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that
they are as confused as you.You look at your job… and it is not even close to
what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are
looking for a job and realizing that you are going to
have to start at the bottom and that scares you.Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what
others are doing and find yourself judging more than
usual because suddenly you realize that you have
certain boundaries in your life and are constantly
adding things to your list of what is acceptable and
what isn’t. One minute, you are insecure and then the
next, secure.You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your
life. You feel alone and scared and confused.
Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on
to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the
past is
drifting further and further away, and there is
nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you
loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed
and wonder why you can’t meet anyone decent enough
that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love
someone but love someone else too and cannot figure
out why you are doing this because you know that you
aren’t a bad person. One night stands and random hook
ups start to look cheap.Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look
pathetic. You go through the same emotions and
questions over and over, and talk with your friends
about the same topics because you cannot seem to
make a decision.You worry about loans, money, the future and making a
life for yourself… and while winning the race would
be great, right now you’d just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone reading this
relates to it.We are in our best of times and our worst of times,
trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing
out.
